She wanted to know how it felt like if she actually drowned in her own sadness and sorrow

So as she dipped her toes in the water she remembered the first time her heart broke

As the water reached her navel

She remembered the day she cried herself to sleep in her room for no reason

As the water reached her neck

She remembered the day she started feeling numb to every sort of emotion

As she took her last breath

She was under water

And she remembered faking her happiness because the truth didn’t make sense anymore

As she struggled to hold her breath

She looked up and saw how beautiful the sun was

Glistening over the water

Like yellow crystals

So she swam towards them

And from there

She felt alive for the very first time.